Ok, I was not done posting and hit publish post. The day out wore me out, but it was good to get out as I don't do that very often. Sunday we had the going away party for Fr Todd. It was a great party, but sad to say good bye. But, am looking forward to meeting new priest and getting to know him.
Today I have been queasy and have had diarrhea. I do not think it is related to my chemo, I just think it is something viral. Ugh! I hate feeling this way. A big thank you to my niece Katie. She came at 10:00 and I went to lay down. I woke up at 2:00. She deserves over time! I only expected to lay down for a couple hours.
It has really been hard for me to realize that I am only 8 hours out of major surgery. I was crying last night telling Dennis that it is so hard for me to take the time to rest. But I get so worn out and need to. He had to remind me of where I was 8 weeks ago and that neither one of us wanted to go back there. Nice kick in the a$$! ha!
Claire is out of school this week. I am going to enjoy the week with her. Maybe go to story time and for sure try and get her a hair cut. we decided to go shorter for summer. Saturday night I got her on video walking. it was so cute! I say by the end of the summer she will be running!
Blessings on your week.

Weekend was good. We went out to SICA and listened to the reunion band. Saturday my sister and I went to see,"My sisters keeper." Very good movie and a tear jerker that is for sure. Then we went shopping. After losing 30 pounds apparently I needed some new clothes and under garments!

I was thinking the other day. Something that caught me and has stuck with me. So many people approach me and tell me I am brave. What exactly does that mean? Brave. Is it that they don't know what else to say? I am not brave. I don't even feel like I am any different than anyone else right now. Cancer or no cancer. I understand that not all people with cancer have a positive attitude and just as soon give up. Not everyone accepts their disease like others. I suppose if I was told I had no chance of surviving,I might even have a nasty attitude. I mean really, aren't we all brave?
Everyone experiences moments in their lives where they do what they have to do to survive. To make it day to day. My worst moments were in the hospital. I was getting so depressed. I even told my sister I felt defeated. I could not catch a break. Cancer and then this surgery. It was bad enough I had had 5 chemo treatments, so I was an exceptional case with the surgery and recovery as well! But I obviously survived and not because I was brave, because I had to.
I am also stumped at the word inspiration. Was I not an inspiration to people before I had cancer? This confuses me too.
all I am doing is the best I can and making the most of everyday and every minute. You can't get these times back. I treasure time with my family. Watching Claire do things for the first time. Enjoying hearing her little voice and her laughter. These are not actions of a brave person or an inspirational person, just a person living life day to day.

Week has been pretty good. Wednesday I did feel like a Mack truck hit me, Thursday it was more like a pick up truck! I am sure tomorrow will be better. Like I said before, having my treatments on Monday will free up my weekends at least.
My appetite is coming back with a vengeance. Everything sounds good. I can only eat small portions though. This is ok with me. Seeing how some of the things I am craving are not the best for me. I thank God for children's meals at restaurants! Most of them will let you order off that menu. I still want to keep off the 30 pounds I lost, so I have to watch what I eat.
I had the chance to have a nice visit with my first grade teacher tonight! Our family has always been close to Sr Carol. It was so good to see her.
Ms Claire is doing well and maturing so quickly. She was standing at the door tonight and I could not believe how big she looked! She is off of school next week so I will enjoy being with her all week.
This weekend Beth Anne and I are going to see, " My sisters keepers." I am sure I will have to pack Kleenex's. Also going out to SICA tomorrow night to listen to the reunion band. Good to get out.
Blessings on your weekend!

Weekend was pretty good. Friday night we went out to the Southern Indiana Center for the Arts (SICA). My brother Mike and his band played. We left Claire with our neighbors Preston's(thank you by the way) because we thought it would be too hot. I don't know if she would have sat very still anyway. But it was nice out and an enjoyable evening. I even went hatless! My hair is growing back and quite frankly, it was too hot for any kind of hat or scarf.
Friday was my last infusion day as well and boy was I a happy camper.
Saturday we went over to the high school and listened to the TOG band again. Sunday we went to mass and then out to Cracker Barrel for lunch. We all ended up coming home and taking long naps before going over to mom and dads for a visit.
Today I started back to chemo. There were some people I did know there getting treatments. I also had to get potassium through my IV because of it being so low. I would much rather get it this way then take those blasted horse pills! Yes, I am being a baby about it! It will be interesting to see when I start detoxing from chemo. I am thinking either Wednesday or Thursday I will be really tired and worn out. Who knows?
I did start reading "My sisters keepers" today. My sister and I are going to go see it this weekend when it comes out.
Enjoy your week and count your blessings!

Today was an appointment filled day. I met with Dr Le first and things are looking good. He cotorsized the small area that was still draining. I go back in another month and see him for follow up.

And the of course I had my daily infusion appointment. Tomorrow is my last day!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!! I made cookies for the nurses there for putting up with me for 4 weeks.

Then I went and saw Dr Olivarez. She wasn't really upset with my weight loss like I thought she for sure would be. She consulted with Dr Robertson in Indy as far as starting chemo back and what the plan should be. So, I go back to chemo on Monday. My potassium was low so I have to take a horse of a potassium pill 2x a day. Not looking forward to choking that down!

My friend Melanie came over tonight and gave me the most awesome pedicure. I think I have found my own pedicurist! My feet feel so good and look great to boot! Thanks Mel!

Hoping everyone has a great weekend full of blessings!

Today has been a blah day. I think it must be the weather. I am so anxious to quit having to go to the infusion ctr everyday to get those meds. They are so strong and really mess with my stomach. It is hard when you have your appetite back and can't really eat much. I usually can eat by 2:00 in the afternoon. And when we do order out it is half of what I can eat. But today I successfully ate an entire jr. bacon cheeseburger from Wendy's. Sorry Dr Le, I know that was not lean protein!
My routine is to go get infused and then I come home and rest because they upset my stomach. I rested for 4 hours today! I guess my body needs the sleep but really! In my world that is unheard of! There would be too many things to do around the house! So you know I have slowed down to heal now.
Got out after dinner and walked up and down the street. Felt good to get out and walk. I am going to start practicing at the hospital in the stairwell on steps. I really need to build my strength up there.
Not much else happening here. I see Dr Le Thursday morning and Dr O that evening. Hoping to start chemo next week again.
Blessings

One more week of infusions and hopefully I can get back on track with my chemo.
This past week my blood pressure has been really high. The nurse called Dr Towriss today and he came down and saw me. He just increased the dosage of what I was taking. He was thrilled the infection was gone. He explained to me why I have this other little spot that seems to be draining on it's own. That is where Dr Le went in with a scope. So now I feel much better.
He did say it will still be a good 6 weeks before I am feeling myself.
Last Sunday when I went to get my infusion, one of the nurses from the Cancer center was working and she told me they had all kinds of new people to for me to chat with when I come back. I had to laugh at that.
My only concern going back to chemo is the spanking I am going to get from DR Olivarez with my weight lose. I am surely thinking she will understand and just tell me not to lose anymore. I have not been this thin in years. Thank god I had the weight to lose. Oh well, "it is what it is."
I guess not much more to report. Sissy and I are running to Walgreen's today. I don't know how much more exciting you can get than that! I need to get out, but don't want to be around alot of people.
Blessings on your week and your weekend!

Weekend was fine. They all kind of come and go right now. Looking forward to the to Saturdays where I can get up and go garage saling. My life is on hold I feel like right now and it is hard. Once I can get my balance and walking down, at least I will be able to drive again. I know this recovery time is going to be longer than the last because it is more of a major surgery. Can you tell I am down about all of this. Don't get me wrong. I am thankful I am healing and I am home and surrounded by those that can help, it still is hard to have to be dependent on folks.
I have started walking to the infusion center. I don't have a problem walking as much as I do standing for any amount of time.
Thank you once again to the Rosary Society Members who continue to bring us food every week. And to Michelle Nicther for the awesome pie!
Blessings

What an interesting day. Once I finally got in to see the Radiologist doing procedure, he did an unltrasound and said he did not see the pockets of infection. So then we did a ct scan and it showed the same thing. He decided that the 2 weeks of anti biotics I have been getting cleared the infections up. He really did not see any reason to be poking around in me.
So thank you for your continued prayers and well wishes.
Blessings

Tomorrow is my day to get my infection drained. I am sure I will come home with a drain tube. Dr Le's office will be able to take that out. I am hoping the infusion ctr will call me and let me know what Dr Towriss says about going in on Friday. I have a feeling he will want me to wait a day to go back in and get some more fluids and anti biotic.
I am alittle nervous but just ready to get this done. I do have more energy everyday. Even if I slept 3 hours today!
Once again, thank you so much for all the food, Michelle the pie did not last long. We certainly aren't wanting for anything. This just shows you how awesome people are in your time of need.
Blessings!
Thank you Aunt Dayna for your information!