Thursday, March 25, 2010

I had my visit with Dr O last week. All my levels look good. She kept saying I looked great and strong. I am feeling stronger every day. I am actually finally getting comfortable with my body again. I know that may sound odd, but I had lost so much weight so fast, that it was hard on me to accept too. I knew I looked like a "cancer patient." We have agreed to scans every 6 months for the next 2 years. And I will see her every 3 months for blood work. So it goes.
I met with a personal trainer Monday. I am so excited to get started! She is going to be so awesome and so good for me. I am so excited to build up my core muscles. I know this will give me strength and give me energy in return.
I am loving my hair. It is wavy. It is longer too. I am on a mission to go Organic now. I am slowly going to do it with all our household items as well. My first goal was to get new deodorant. Dr Windley told my sister that deodorants with aluminum clog up the pores and this would not be good for those that have had lymphoma. So I got some Tom of Maine deodorant. Now I am after Organic shampoo. Can't imagine what all this stuff I do is doing to my body!
Looking forward to Dennis coming home tonight. He has been gone all week to a training class in Kansas City, MO. It was nice for him to be able to spend some time with his younger sister Karen, who lives an hour away from there. But Claire and I have missed him terribly.
Saturday we are going to Story Inn for Beth Anne's birthday. We are meeting Beth and Tony as well. Then Saturday night I have a house warming party to go to in Hope. A classmate of mine moved from VA and lives in Hope now. She is part of the group of us that go out every month.
Not much else going on.
Blessings on your weekend!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

It was a nice week. The weather was beautiful and I was able to get outside and walk. It really is amazing how much sunshine and fresh air can make a difference in attitude. I am sure everyone is ready for spring.
Spring break is this week. I know I will enjoy having Claire home. We have been busy feeding our babies, bathing them and putting them down for naps lately. They say children learn by example. Nothing is more true than this. Mom and dad were watching Claire one afternoon. Mom had a small plastic bottle that is suppose to be lotion or perfume. Mom was using as perfume. When Claire took it she was pretending it was deodorant! The things they see when we least expect it! too funny!
I was going to do a 21 day study at the health club here in town. They needed 50 people and have 100 doing the study. The more I looked into it, the more I decided it wasn't going to be for me. Instead I am going to a personal trainer. I am doing 10 sessions with her. It will be for 30 minutes a week. I really need to build up my core muscles before I can do a whole lot more. I said I have none since 2 surgeons cut into them! Ha!
Thursday I go to get my port flushed and blood work done and a quick visit with Dr O. Hoping my levels are good! Dad called me last Friday and let me know that a man in our support group is terminal. He spoke with his wife. Apparently his Leukemia was advanced when they found it. All they can do is make him comfortable. Please keep him and his family in your prayers. My prayers also go out to the Hatton family.
Next weekend Chicago! Yeah!
Enjoy the week and it's blessings!

Monday, March 1, 2010

We had a good weekend. We didn't have anything planned. This weekend will be a different story. Friday night I went down to visit with a neighbor. She really helped me bring light to alot of different things. It was therapeutic and I thank her for that. Here I listen to so many others and their journeys, that sometimes it is good for me to have someone who has not been there to talk to and give me a different perspective on things.
Lance Armstrong once said that, "Cancer may leave my body, but it will never leave my life." This is so true!
After I got Claire on the bus Friday I had a meltdown. I laid in bed for 2 hours and cried! I needed this. I have been holding so much in lately, that I just needed to cry and get it over with. Then I got up and cleaned out my closet! I am getting rid of all my old clothes that are left that are too big. There is no need to keep the sweatshirts etc... I have nice flannel pajamas etc... I have held on to a few things and for no reason. It is just a reminder of my life before I was sick and I need to move on. I know I will never be the same person. Anyone who faces a life threatening illness or event and survives, is ever the same. I know I am more emotional about things that for sure. If not having Claire 4 years ago did that enough! Ha!
I just told someone that when Claire was born, I never questioned why. But when you get sick with cancer, you go through the would've, could've and should've's. I think it is just natural to do that. But I have to get over the guilt too and that has been the hardest thing. I know having cancer has caused my family alot of sadness. It has also caused us alot of financial issues we never had before, even with insurance. But honestly, we are still being blessed with people doing things that are incredible. A local sorority gave us 2 scholarships for Claire to do her horseback riding. That is well over $400.00. Even Dennis got teary eyed over that one! So the blessings never stop!
I go see Dr Le Thursday, for hopefully the last time! I say that every visit! Ha! Friday my sister and I along with a nurse from the Cancer Ctre are going to an educational program in Indy sponsored by the Leukemia/Lymphoma Society. My sister and I are anxious to see if any of the speakers are familiar with the rare type of lymphoma we had.
Blessings for the week!